Relief

If I’m honest with myself, most days are good days.

That doesn’t mean that all days are good days, or that most days are great days, but God has been gracious to me, and most days I’m reminded of that grace in more ways than I can count, and that makes the day good.

Some days, however, are heavy. Whether it’s a cummulation of minor things that become major in their aggregate, or a heavy loss or burden, some days are hard, difficult, and a challenge to get through. It’s those days that I find myself crying out to my Abba Father for relief – from simple escape from the heaviness that fills my heart.

Most of the time, I’m asking for relief from the situation; I want the circumstances to change so that they will no longer bother me. God, sometimes, but rarely provides that. Instead, He removes the heaviness of my heart. The situation usually does not change, at least in the short term, but as He walks through the trial with me, He provides comfort and peace.

As Psalm 94:19 says:

“When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.”

The heavier my heart is, the more He bears the load. When my cares are multiplied, so are His consolations. When storms rage, He brings peace.

He provides relief. Not by obliterating all my cares, but by overwhelming them with His grace. 

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Beautiful & Complete

I like completing things. As I’ve written about before, I’m a big fan of a to-do list, but I’m an even bigger fan of crossing things off that list. If I have a disagreement with someone, I always desire it to come to a specific and agreed-upon resolution, even if that resolution is just to agree to disagree. Projects that remain undone, chores that remain unfinished, opportunities that aren’t fully taken advantage of, leave me disappointed.

Yet, what I’ve learned is that this life will never completely satisfy this desire. Because the moment that things are truly completed, will be the moment that I’m in Heaven. At that point, my Savior and my God will bind up all the loose pieces of this life – the frayed fabric and the splintering ends, and reveal the beautiful masterpiece that He is creating with it. He is taking the things that I don’t understand, the moments that leave me saddened, and the “insignificant” ways in which I chose to obey Him (and not my own desires), and using them to create something that is far grander than anything I could ever even attempt. His ways are not my ways, and so in the things I question and in the incompleteness of this life, Hs is completing something beautiful; something that will make all the unanswered questions and disappointed feelings more than worth it.

Because He is worth it.  

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